A Chance for the Past?

Life has a funny way of reminding me of my history. I have been sick over the last few days and have heard from people from my past who are willing to help me out. I find it truly admirable, definitely heartfelt, and yet slightly confusing. For an obvious reason, the relationships ended.

While I do sometimes think I can go back, most times the signs were there that it wasn't meant to be. I think back to my marriage and how many times I gave him the benefit of the doubt...and how many times I was wrong. Clearly, short term relationships don't have the depth of that kind of love and family commitment, yet I don't know that going back is the way to move forward. I talked about red flags and potentially not counting them all as bad, understanding humans have different quirks that may be looked upon as unique and interesting.

The quirks, red flags, idiosyncrasies, all remind me that we are unique beings. Each of us want something and that can be commitment, understanding, security, or companionship to name a few. Finding someone who wants what you want is the challenging part. As a mature adult, and I say that while laughing, I navigate with an open heart, but truth be told, the opening is not that big. I thoroughly enjoy times with my friends, work buddies and my family. My faith is important to me as well as keeping active. I have 6 weeks left to my busy season then plan to open that spot in my heart a little bigger to see what's next.

There may be a chance for the past. I am certainly not ruling it out. Only time and prayers will give me the answers.